WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I TURN FORTY-FIVE (45) YEARS OLD

What happens to me when I turn forty-five (45) years old.  Will I vanish without a trace as if I never existed at all.  Will tragedy darken and reverse all the good that I've ever done?  What happens to me when I turn forty-five (45) years old.  Will I achieve the greatest success ever known to humanity?  Will I come upon an advance that will benfit and provide salvation to us all?  What happens to me when I turn forty-five (45) years old?  Sometimes it appears as if everybody on the entire planet Earth knows what will happen to me before I do.  Sometimes it appears as if everybody except for me is aware that this entire world and continuity is a mistake and a darker reality was supposed to prevail.  But if that's the case, can't we stay in the happy world where darkness and tragedy isn't common place.  And if everybody on the entire planet knows the truth better than me, then what good would religion do us all.  If a mere human can do GOD's job better than GOD himself, then what use would be for us to care about the Christian faith (or Judiasm or Islam too for that matter).  For in religion, GOD knows the master plan better than the human race.  And if everybody on the planet Earth except for me knows the master plan better than GOD, then GOD himself is obsolete.  And I don't want GOD to be obsolete.  And I don't want this pleasent happy world to be a mistake either.  I'm sory I'm getting carried away with such thoughts in my head.  I have a lot to think about as I prepare for my mid-life crises when I realize that I'm forty-five years old and I'm still working as a janitor for minimum wage employment.
And as I'm lost in thought while reading books in the public library, here are some photos of Saskia Rosendahl in the film Lore.

 

Nele Trebs and Saskia Rosendahl in the film Lore.

Nele Trebs in the film Lore.

Nele Trebs at the film premiere for Lore.

Producer Paul Welsh, actress Nele Trebs, author Rachel Seiffert, Gretchen Seiffert, actress Saskia Rosendahl and director Cate Shortland

Actress Nele Trebs, director Cate Shortland and actress Saskia Rosendahl

Actress Saskia Rosendahl and director Cate Shortland

 

Author Rachel Seiffert, Gretchen Seiffert and actress Saskia Rosendahl

Gretchen Seiffert and actress Saskia Rosendahl

Actresses Nele Trebs and Saskia Rosendahl

 Saskia Rosendahl

FORTY-FOUR YEARS OLD GOING ON FORTY-FIVE YEARS OLD

I'll be forty-four (44) years old for the next fourteen days (Not counting today). I'll be officially forty-five (45) years old starting February 15, 2013. Not wanting anything horrible to happen this close to my birthday is of primary important. Honestly, who among us would desire something horrible to happen this close to the birthday. Certainly not me. And so the need to have as pleasent a birthday celebration as possible requires better than average behavior in hopes of getting the best birthday presents as possible. Yeah, I also respect that there's a tight budget involved too. So my wish for as positive a birthday celebration as possible is tempered by the knowledge that my birthday won't be celebrated in Paris, France about my own private luxury houseboat the size of an ocean liner. Hey, Donald Trump as the Trump Princess. Is it so wrong for me to want a houseboat a tiny bit larger than the Trump Princess. I know that a guy who washes dishes for Red Lobster Restaurant will never climb that high, but there's nothing wrong with wishful thinking long as it's tempred the realization that wishfull thinking fantasy still functions as wishfull thinking fantasy.
And as I'm lost in thought so very close to my forty-fifth (45) birthday, here are some photos of film actress (Crossroads) and rock star Britney Spears.